Genesis;

There she was standing right in the middle of our door way, I let her in and offered her a glass of water which she turned down. There we were in the middle of the rainstorm silent. Maybe she had just come to shelter herself from the rain, I thought to myself (the most uncomfortable scenario that ever happened to me). I walked myself to the kitchen to at least ease the tension,got my phone out and started going through some vacant online remote jobs, there was move at the doorway, I thought to myself maybe its the wind blowing against the curtains, it happened the second time again and I could not assume it, when I got my eyes up from the phone there she was right in front of me staring,she flashed a smile.

“Can I ask you something?” She uttered as she sat on the slab next to me, “Do you think you’re the only one she loves? Do you think where she is right now she’s not seeing anyone else? Are you sure she’s even in Nairobi?” She added. There I was defending my sweet beautiful Claudia just like I always do, but at the back of my mind the questions kept stirring round and round, this was one of her friends telling me all these, just like the argument the rain was also getting intense, so I just kept quiet and looked at her as she kept on talking to herself while my mind plunged to despair. Before I even realized she had shifted position and she was not bolted in front of me,”Do you love her?” She asked, before I could even deny she had already leaned in and planted a peck on my left cheek. Shocking as it is I still knew her intentions weren’t right,she made her way back to the living room. As I sat there tempted and broken, thinking of whether there’s truce in whatever she said,I didn’t notice the rain coming to a pause,there they were my brothers, making stories as they entered the house,as I went to tell them who the visitor was,what we found was very absurd and just low to the society and rules of life,she was half naked there standing at the door way asking my brothers who they were, how I could I convince them there was nothing between the me and the girl when they had already met at such a scenario.

I was lucky enough to have saviours like them I let them in and told the girl to excuse us we are to leave for town since there was no lunch,she insisted on staying behind but her intentions were clearly laid out, she was out to destroy. Embarrassed as she was, she wore her put on the rest of her clothes and we left making sure the door was locked behind us. She took a motorbike and left us strolling down the slope to town.”Thank you for embarrassing me in front of your friends,I try to make you happy but all you think of is that girlfriend of yours.” Her text flew in,this was enough proof to convince my brothers I had not even laid a finger on her. There we were at the mall making fun of the girl as we had lunch but I was feeling this type of pain inside me,or was it what she said that was causing the pain.

Days had passed now,I had not heard from the girl,but what she said was chewing me up. I started getting angry and upset,till now all I had was nothing but suicidal thoughts,I was ready to lose it all for living a false relationship, I took my phone and decided to ask Claudia about it before I made any other move. I was in pain and disbelief not knowing asking her all these was causing her pain too, I was questioning her trust and loyalty, she went cold on me for a week straight.

I didn’t know what to do,who to ask for help,I was tearing in day by day,then I decided this was the day. I took some aqua pills and plunged a handful in my mouth and swallowed,in a few minutes time I was on the floor coughing up blood asking myself was it really worth it,was my life to end this way,I saw the room spin for one more time then everything turned dark……………………………………………

To be continued……………….